Are there any Hollywood celebrities who never divorced? Why does it seem like celebrities are likely to get divorced frequently?

They influenced so many people to get divorced and dump each other and go out with whoever and do this and do that. And then they go on their little movies and kiss somebody else and hug somebody else and f*** somebody else and then once they get off the clock off their set, they go and f*** somebody else in real life and then dump them and then go out with somebody else. They obviously think that they're like high grade material to where they could just dump whoever they want and get together with whoever they want at the expensive not them! They're not going to be paying for it. In fact them dumping and then going out with someone else and doing it all over again and again is probably going to bring in more profit for them somehow. They're going to get more publicity that way and then they're going to be selling more albums or they're going to be selling more movie tickets or something or movies or something like that. Somebody is going to be liking it basically and they're not going to give a f*** if they're a good influence on the public or not. They think that their movies are a good influence for us. all they're doing is just coming out with an album or a movie that says okay well I'm going to pretend like I give a s*** about your feelings and I'm going to pretend like I'm going to try to be a good influence on you but then you all know that you're going to be hearing about my actual life in the news and I'm either going to be cheating on someone or knocking somebody up or dumping this person and going out with this person and then going out with this person and then cheating on that person and having a baby with this person. It's like they want their movies to have a lot of impact on the general public? But it seems like to me that their private lives are making more of an impact on the public rather than their movies. There are movies I mean a lot of it you know they're takes a lot of production and a lot of movie and investing and work to make their movies but then all of that just goes to shoot when you hear about your favorite actor or your favorite actress you know dumping or getting dumped or cheating or dying or getting raped or some stolen from or getting their dogs stolen or something like that. It's like okay you just made a really really good movie and then the next day the news is coming out with the fact that you cheated on your wife with your housekeeper and knocked her up and had a son with her. Okay so forget about the f****** movie I saw yesterday because the movie made you look like a hero. The movie made you look like a really good person because they're supposed to because in their contract sometimes, they only sign contracts if you guarantee and promise that the main actor or the main actress will not die or get hurt in the movie. They can pretend like they're getting hurt but the movie contract usually has to state that the main actor or even the co-star will not die. In the movie script. And sometimes their contracts go as far as making sure that the main actor or the co-star will not lay down on the ground even some kind of stuff like that. Because I know that there have been a few really really famous actors where they will only sign the contracts if they guarantee that the movie the main actor or the main actress does not die in the movie. I mean that's obvious because if they're going to continue their career and continue maximizing their profits, they're not going to be in a movie that's going to kill them. But you see what I'm saying how there's all kinds of s*** going on in Hollywood though we're not aware of? And then there's a lot of people that are stealing a lot of people's materials or they're trying to sneak their way around from violating the laws for example? Like let's say the law says that you're not allowed to follow somebody into the bathroom. So what they're going to do is do their homework and find out what kind of ways they can follow that person in the bathroom without actually violating the law and risking going to jail. Does like how a lot of Hollywood contracts work is that they're going to try to find these little ways around from violating the law and when someone questions them about it, they're just going to have their own lawyers say that well technically that wasn't really against the law. So they have their little ways and they have their little defense. And they all know each other including the lawyers and probably the judges as well as the prosecutors and stuff like that sometimes. Because if they all know each other behind our backs the way that they do including very very intimately, then they're probably very familiar with their communities peoples as well and they probably try to you know what I mean? So they have their own little ways and then they're obviously a gang. They're obviously just secret little g*********** and they're protecting themselves and trying to protect their assets and protect their profits as well. And anyone that's a part of Hollywood or anyone that's in the public eye even, they're being protected by each other as well as anyone that likes them. And you can't really touch them sometimes because they form these solid business relationships as well as business relationships. I really don't think that anyone in Hollywood really truly is a best friend to each other because of the fact that you never really know who is trying to live their life at your expense. Like they're trying to make their money at whoever is expense. So I wouldn't say that they are really best friends. I would say that they're more like business associates that pretend like they're friends sometimes in public or award shows or whatever kind of meetings that they go to or whatever but I think they all realize they're pretty much they only have a business relationship. They are not best friends and neither are they really even friends. Some of them are probably friends but then after a while, they'll start to realize that they're not really friends and then you know they'll go from there. Because if they thrive off of Fame and the glitz and glamor, then they can't have the spotlight together. They can have the spotlight at different times separately but there can never be two main actors in a movie for example. And usually the co-star or the side actor is usually the one that gets shot down or hurt while the main actor * 1 not actress but actor will stay alive or do something that makes them look like a hero or something. And in real life also, there's been times where a lot of co-stars have either died really tragically really young or they have been a lot of co-stars that have come close to dying tragically. Like for some reason the main actors of some movies, they stay alive for a really long time and they never get touched they never get hurt or they never get killed or they never get cancer or they never really get anything really bad happen to them. But the co-stars are the ones in real life, they for some reason it's really suspicious. It really is kind of suspicious because it's obvious that those actors and actresses have always been the co-stars or at least in one really good movie has been the co-star and not the main actor. And for some reason that co-star is beginning to get really sick or they're dying tragically or something like that. It's really weird and something that's been going on for a really long time. And then as far as like musicians go, a lot of them are truly relentless. They really are so persistent and they're even more so than screen actors. I feel like the music industry probably is much more aggressive and relentless than the movie making industry. I feel like they have gone so far as to try to take somebody down or to try to murder somebody or hurt somebody or something like that to keep their main musicians or you know something like protected? I just feel like the music industry would go a step further as far as trying to hurt somebody or kill somebody unlike the movie industry but also the movie industry since they're all pretty much the same thing and they're all associated with Hollywood or celebrities or whatever, I feel like even probably the movie industry would also do the same thing at some point but the movie industry is different from the music industry obviously because they more so like depend on their looks but the music industry you hear about the music industry having all sorts of weird commotion going on about people getting shot they're like up and coming artists or they're getting arrested or taken to jail or something like that. There's a lot of competition in the music industry and I feel like the music industry would probably be responsible for a lot of really really bad things going on. But the movie industry also is going through some really weird things as far as like their relationships go to. And then TV movie whatever they're doing a lot of weird things. and then there's like p Diddy thing that just came out that's really weird. Because it's just so sudden and then he's probably one of the main guys that had a lot of contact with the other main guys that help them to get really really rich and very famous. And it's like they're either trying to take Puff Daddy out because he's one of the main guys or somebody is really really anti-hollywood and they're trying to f*** with Hollywood like Hollywood f***** with a lot of people. I feel like Hollywood is not totally completely innocent obviously. They just have a lot of weird things that they try to sneak around with and you know they're always trying to either steal somebody's material or they're trying to kill somebody or they're trying to evade the law or they're trying to you know violate copyright laws but not really violate copyright laws. They're trying to protect their celebrities but they're trying to get rid of the want to be celebrities. And it's just obvious that the elitist people are just trying to protect themselves. And with all that money, they can buy whoever and they can buy whatever to keep themselves protected. So they got the resources and the funds to do that which pretty much sometimes makes them really unstoppable. They really are trying to probably make themselves unstoppable and they probably got eyes everywhere and ears everywhere to wear if somebody or something happen that threatens their life or their assets, they're probably going to be making a phone call or pretending like they're going to threaten to make a phone call like they know somebody. Is pretty much like a gang. So you know like a game that looks like it's not actually a game. I meant a gang like a gang banger. Like a gang banger that's not dressed like a street gang banger. They are dressed more like regular people but they are in fact g**********. And they will also use the fact that they have a lot of connections or people that they know pretty much is the same thing and they will either threaten to call them or threaten to bring you down or something like that if you say anything about it. Which pretty much makes them a gangster. But they wouldn't like to be called gangster because they think they are above gangsters because their idea of a gangster is somebody in jail with a bunch of tattoos. But they are actually gangsters. But I don't really watch a lot of TV and movies I used to watch a lot of movies and the last one I saw was actually pretty interesting to watch there was a lot of special effects and sounds etc. And obviously through TV I can get a lot of information or news that I require to know but a lot of TV programming and movies have gone really boring for me and sometimes it's nice to watch with someone else but I'm not trying to get into a series that's on netflix. And I'm not really trying to support people that are out to either attack me or attack somebody else to protect their profits like netflix? There's all kinds of s*** going on behind closed doors like if they see like there's a free movie for example on YouTube that deserves to be on Netflix because they want people to pay for it instead of it being free, they're going to steal that movie off of YouTube and buy it off of YouTube and put it on netflix. So that the people investing in Netflix are the ones getting paid for a really good movie. Instead of having it free for example. Oh there's all kinds of s*** going on these people are so f****** relentless and screwed up in their heads and like if they're filming some kind of like drama? They will be as racist as possible and try to either make the Asian person the bad person or like they'll finally introduce an Asian person into soap operas for example. I think it was The Young and restless recently I saw it was like last week, they have finally an Asian person but she looks like either she's Vietnamese or Korean or something but not exactly precisely Korean but not exactly precisely Vietnam vietnamese. But they have this Asian girl on their finally who's one of the main type of actors, but she's the one that cheated on her white boyfriend. So in the soap opera now I think it was young and restless but it could have been Days of our lives or something, they have the young Asian girl being caught sleeping with another guy but she's already in a relationship and apparently she accidentally took some drink or something and thought that the person she was sleeping with was her boyfriend. And they're going through this drama but this Asian girl is dating a white guy and so I think it's kind of weird because it is kind of portraying her like a bad person but she might have some good reason or good defense as to why she got caught sleeping with somebody else. Like the fact that the drink was there that caused her to feel woozy enough to sleep with somebody else makes her not really all that bad of a person but still the fact that she actually did have sex with somebody other than her boyfriend, that kind of takes the cake and makes her a bad person even though that little drink or that drug thing that she took, could possibly excuse her from sleeping with somebody else. Because she says that she didn't know it was not her boyfriend. Because somebody gave her that drink or something I probably that guy she slept with. So it's like the Asian girl is kind of being portrayed like a good girl but kind of being portrayed like a bad girl? And she happens to be dating a white guy and here in that situation, the white guy is not the one that cheated but they are making it obvious that they want to make it look like the Asian girl was the one who did the white guy badly. In many ways they're trying to pretty much protect their own images and they're very racist over there and it was recent within the last few years that someone found out that people magazine might have a lot of racist editors and racist article writers and stuff like that because some of their photos that had blacks or Asians in their magazines were slightly distorted. Like for some reason the photos and people magazine I think it was people magazine or it could have been us no it was definitely people magazine, and but we already know that people magazine has all kinds of racist people writing their articles and racist photographers and stuff like that but it was something also that I've noticed too that their photos whenever it was a non-white personally a black or Asian person, it just didn't look right. It just looked like somebody had gone in there and deliberately made their photos look really bad. Like they look like they had some kind of facial deformity but it was just the photo. It wasn't the actual celebrity that had the deformity but it was looking like somebody had photo edited the photo that they had published to look really bad. Like something was wrong with them you know what I mean? And then I think somebody found that out now I don't know if that's actually true or not. I don't actually know if people magazines editors or writers would go so far as to do something like that but I don't think half the public even realizes how racist some people especially some white people can be. Especially against Asians or blacks. There there are a lot of very very racist Rich people. They are extremely racist. And if they get a hold of movies and songs and actors and stuff like that, they will try to portray the Asian or black person to be the bad person in many ways. And you know some of those soap operas they've been running for a really long time and even on their said they base their sets off of like Southern California like sometimes Malibu and Santa Monica and Venice and whatever else and you know that area and so when they do that, they're pretty much representing the real actual City also and if they're racist, they're going to try to keep it white as possible. And if people magazine is racist and you know movie producers and TV producers are racist, I wouldn't doubt that people magazine probably did do a little bit of photo editing to try to make the non-white people look kind of distorted in their photos? But I am getting a lot of magazines to my house and one of these days when I am settled and I have what I want and well what I'm trying to get and what I'm trying to do, I will sit back and start reading those magazines and one of those magazines happens to be the Hollywood type of magazines. Where they're trying to keep an eye on what everyone's doing and who everyone's dating and when I say that I feel like I've noticed the celebrities breaking up and then trying to you know date these dark skin people and by dark skin people I mean non-hollywood as well. Like celebrities from Hollywood are dating non-hollywood you know people, and then you've got the one Asian person that is next to the white guy but then you start flipping the pages and there's no Asian people. Until maybe an advertisement on the very beginning where it shows in very blurry pictures the Asian woman in the ad with some possibly white guy it looks like he might be a white guy or a black guy but it's like mixed guy? And then in the commercials sometimes when you turn on TV regardless if it's Roku or regular cable channels, they'll have their commercials where if there is an Asian girl, or Asian female, the guy that's next to her will almost always be a black guy or a Mexican guy but more than likely a black guy. It will hardly ever be a white guy. I'm not sure what conspiracy that would be or I'm not sure what kind of strategy that would be because if they're trying to Target a certain group of people which means that they're trying to Target the Asian black couple, there's not a lot of Asian black couples. So I don't know why they would say that they're trying to Target Asian black couples by placing Asian black people in their advertisements or movies or television shows, when we all know that there's not a lot of Asian black couples walking around and there's not a lot of Asian black couples even though there are some but there's not enough to justify the fact that every single advertisement or movie or show has an Asian black person or Asian black couple. But I feel like there might be some jealousy maybe maybe somebody is trying to prevent an Asian person and a black or trying to prevent an Asian person and a white person from getting together and having a happy relationship I don't know? I mean if people magazine is already trying to distort the photos of Asian people and black people, then who's to say that there's not somebody out there that doesn't want to see an Asian person or an Asian female with a white guy and specifically a really good looking Asian white couple? You know what I mean like an Asian female white guy who is like really good looking and they look really happy together. I mean if somebody that works in people magazine is trying to destroy you know Asian people or black people or whoever they're trying to be racist against, then there's probably people that don't want to see white guy with a really pretty Asian person and they are getting a lot of publicity. Like have you ever seen that? I've never literally seen that in Hollywood where an Asian female and a white man are getting like a lot of celebrity treatment and a lot of media coverage and they're getting talked about. But lately it just seems like they're getting a lot of coverage on like a white guy trying to date an Arab or a white guy trying to date a Spanish person or a white guy trying to date another white person? But you'll never see a white guy celebrity that's good looking that's getting a lot of media coverage with Asian female going out with him and then also having a baby because I know that one of the few would be like Nicolas Cage and Macaulay Culkin but notice how they hardly ever get a lot of media coverage. I know that Macaulay Culkin is dating some girl and then they had a baby together and that baby is really cute and adorable and there's not a lot of actors that are going out with the Asian white or people probably because there's somebody in Hollywood that doesn't want to see that. Probably because when you see most Hollywood movies and TV shows, they keep that kind of thing out of their movies. Which means that they're essentially contributing to the failure of white and Asian relationships! So for example like any of my relationships failing with any of these white guys? Hollywood has a direct influence on my relationships because I feel like I know I'm not being racist when I say this, but I feel like some white people, they get their motivation sometimes and as well as influence on certain things to do in their lives by either movies or celebrities or what celebrities are doing or something along those lines. Like they get some of their influence from that and when they see that there's not any movies and there's not any media coverage and there's not any magazine covers and famous couples that are mixed with white and asian, they're probably going to think that it's not cool to be in a white asian relationships? I know that makes them sound kind of superficial but I feel like it's not just whites that are superficial but I feel like they probably don't think it's cool to be in a white asian relationship? Because first of all white asian in Hollywood or movies or shows or anything of that nature is not getting any kind of coverage at all. They're not getting any attention and they're not getting any kind of love and they're not getting people to swoon over them and be there fans and stuff like that. So like if I was one of those like more superficial type of white guys, I would say that dating an Asian female would make me feel like I'm not that cool that people would not like me if I was dating an Asian female etc etc. I don't know if that makes any sense but I'm trying to make some sense but what I'm saying is that they really don't want to be seen with somebody who people would think you know that's not cool to see you know what I mean? Like they want to be seen with the latest outfit or something and they want to be seen with the nicest car sometimes. They want to be seen with the nicest shoes they want to be seen with the coolest gadgets they want to be seen with the coolest things some white guys. As well as some non White guys. And even though we think that guys in general are not superficial like that, I mean in this day and age they make it kind of obvious that they are a little bit like that. Because they don't want anything near them that makes them look uncool. They don't want the color that's uncool they don't want the outfit that looks ugly or makes them look uncool. They want to make themselves look as cool as possible which means that if they're going out with an Asian female, and nobody sees that or talks about that and that's not on any kind of magazine cover and that's not any on any kind of famous movie or that's not on any kind of famous celebrity news or pretty much they have gotten the idea that white and Asian couples are not cool then they're not going to be really wanting to go out with an Asian person. Because they don't want to be seen as uncool and I know that makes them sound really really just so f***** up and shallow but the mentality of certain types of people and not just White people, they have this like click type of behavior it's like a you know since we were young too like we want the latest most awesome things that belong to us or that we're wearing or we're talking about or something. Because we don't first of all want to get rejected by our peers or someone else because we are associating with ourselves an uncool thing. So and I know that sounds really stupid because a relationship is supposed to be all about the two people and not how they look to other people but relationships sometimes are complicated because some people want to date each other because they really do complement each other and they look good together. And then from there they go and form relationship and they attach feelings to that but you know we should have to admit that we admit that sometimes we do things because it makes us look cool. I mean from a young child to a grown adult, we refuse to admit that! We refuse to admit the fact that we only drive certain cars or we only wear certain things or we only do certain things or listen to certain music because of the real reason of wanting to look cooler or be cooler or whatever. And I know that there's people that are against that kind of thing because they think that you know why are you trying to look cool and what makes you think you are cool and stuff like that but even those people, they sometimes do not want to associate with anything that is uncool either. Even though they are the ones calling somebody else for wanting to be cool, those are also the same people that are afraid to look uncool as well. So even though we're out here trying to make it seem like we're all cooler than one another and at the same time against the cool person's mindset or the coolness factor, I feel like at least every person has some part of them that doesn't really want to associate or be around or say or listen to something that would make them look uncool. Even though you might be anti-cool, that also in itself is trying to make yourself look cool by being against coolness. So it really is just a really stupid f***** up mind game that a lot of people play but the fact that there's a lot of failed relationships especially of mine. I've been going out with and also trying to form successful relationships with the white guys that I'm attracted to, for a really long time and they've pretty much all failed. They for some reason have a lot of disrespect going on either from the white guy to me or from me to the white guy but I feel like obviously from my point of view, I didn't really begin the disrespect towards the white guy and in fact the white guy disrespected me first in some kind of way. But that's because that's my opinion and that's what I think but they're probably was some disrespectful stuff going on between from me rather to my white boyfriend but there was also disrespect from my white boyfriend to me as well and obviously I should not hold any kind of grudges and neither should my Little whitey boyfriend but you know how some white people are they hold grudges. And you know how I can be I can also hold grudges too even though I don't want to but unfortunately the damage I feel like was done and I feel like that kind of emotional damage sticks with a person for a really long time. So I try not to get resentful and I try not to definitely retaliate against my little white little boyfriends but I find myself sometimes resenting them and I feel like sometimes when they start to disrespect me, I do want to try to retaliate against them for disrespecting me so badly and hurting my feelings so badly but I don't do it voluntarily. I feel like it's obviously a some kind of a reaction to them either hurting my feelings or disrespecting me in some way. But that obviously has not stopped me from being attracted to them still. So I'm really trying to have a successful relationship with him but I feel like some of them and me come from obvious different backgrounds. We obviously grew up differently from something so small as to making sure to hold fried chicken with a napkin. You know for example like like some of my little white boyfriends, they eat their foods with their hands. I've been on dates with really cute white little boyfriends and suddenly they will be grabbing their foods such as their chicken or their beef with their bare hands getting all of that grease everywhere on their hands and thinking nothing of it. And I'm sitting there in front of their little pretty faces and I'm thinking just how awful that must be to feel as well as sit there and watch them do that. Because I know that's just something so small but I'm using that as an example, I have never understood that because that's just something that they were raised like. Not all of them were raised to use their hands to eat and to wipe their hands on their pants and to get food all over their mouth even though they are in front of a female, but some of the really cute white boyfriends that I've gone out with, they do stuff like that! And I don't do stuff like that. In fact I don't like any kind of food around my mouth and I don't like to touch my food with my hands even if it's fried chicken and if I can, I like to eat my pizza sometimes with a fork which to them is like beyond shocking. Because they think that pizza should never be eaten with a fork and so they think I'm weird for it. You know it's like small things like that but that doesn't necessarily mean that a relationship between a white and Asian person should never work. It's just a small things like that that sometimes are kind of like these little bugs and annoyances that you wonder if the two of you weren't born on different planets you know what I mean? But I mean like you find that person attractive but some of their habits are really unusual to you and some of my habits are really unusual to them. So it's like in that way, I can understand maybe a few Asian white relationships not working out but I don't think that would be the reason the ultimate reason why an Asian why relationship would never work out. I think that those kinds of things also would be interesting enough of a court to have to keep those two people together but sometimes it's not because some Asian people they can get really annoyed with a lot of things. But I feel like white people also can get very very annoyed with a lot of things but they just don't make it as obvious as an Asian person would. Until you actually ask them what annoys you and then they will dump on you all of their problems and all of their annoyances but if you don't ask them, they won't try to make it obvious but an Asian person, sometimes any kind of simple annoyance, they will make it obvious that they are annoyed. They're not going to keep it a secret that they're annoyed with whatever it is. So in those ways you know Asian white people are very different but I'm still attracted to them and I really want it to work out but it seems like sometimes those kinds of quirks are something that you know is something that just needs to be talked about and handled and I'm sure they're white guys that don't like to touch their fried chicken. I'm sure there are white guys that never put their hands on their food and they're a white guys that eat pizza sometimes with forks and knives. I just haven't met that kind of guy yet and I'm not sure how I would feel if the white guy I was dating was exactly like me. I'm not sure if I could sit there watching the white guy cut his pizza with a fork and a knife and shake the milk before drinking it and stuff like that. I think maybe it would make the annoyances decrease a little but I think a part of me really wants to date somebody that's a little more different than me because I don't want to date somebody that's exactly like me. I feel like if a person was exactly like me, I would just be like either really really bored or very miserable because of the fact that if you were exactly like me, we would either be fighting a lot or we would not be there at all for each other. But I feel like I'm still trying to work on how to have a successful relationship with him it's just that I think that what I'm looking past is the fact that friends with them first and then like just be friends with them first and then you know have that kind of relationship you know what I mean? Where you're like becoming really really good friends and then from there you guys either have a relationship or you stay friends. But like as far as just demanding a relationship from me or me demanding a relationship from White guy, there's like no feelings and common activities and nothing that we've done to start the process of forming some kind of trust at the very least. Because even though trust in the world sense means like do you trust this person to be faithful, I'm talking about the type of trust that forms basic relationships and trust like I can trust you to be my friend at the very least. Like so like that kind of trust and not the trust to where you're being paranoid if that person is going to cheat on you but the trust that you know is supposed to form basic friendships and basic relationships where you know hanging out together and it's like it's a slower process instead of speeding things up and rushing somebody into a relationship and then come to find out they're either something wrong with them like attitude-wise or they just clash with you as far as lifestyle goes. And then if you are already in a relationship with them, then it's like you already wasted all that time and then you did something really stupid and that's pointless. But this urge of wanting to become physical also is there too. Like it's not just me either but I feel like it's a lot of like people in general these days, they feel like this urge even though they're not friends yet to get physical. To because they want to touch them or I want to touch them or they want to touch me or they want to kiss me or they want to hug me or I want to hug them and I want to kiss them and even though I don't know them I feel attracted to them and stuff like that. Like so you got to fight that urge because in the process of slowing down the process because you want to be friends with them first because you want to solidify the relationship hopefully in the future, that's a little bit difficult sometimes. Because what if you're trying to get to know the person as just a basic level friend and you're sitting there watching a movie with them and then you end up having feelings like you really want to do something physical with them. Like something. Even if it's like touching them even for a second or sitting so close to them that you're touching them from shoulder to shoulder you know what I mean? Like and then a part of you is telling yourself that you could be holding back and then the other part of you is like you really want that person right now to be physical with you right now and you two are alone and you don't feel like that would be a bad decision. Pretty much what takes the cake is that nothing in your body or your mind or soul is telling you that it would be bad for you to get physical in some way with that person. And so you advance and you end up getting physical and sometimes not as physical as you want or too physical and then what? So it's really difficult because sometimes these guys that I go out with, I know that they can be relationship material and you know sometimes the girls decision can be the giant deal breaker or the deal maker. So if she puts out or you know does something physical with him, then is that all he wanted? If that's all he wanted then how are you going to have a relationship with somebody that just wants you for your body? So you might as well just have him in a physical relationship. You might as well get whatyou want and then give him what he wants and then be done with it right? So like you think well how are you going to have a relationship with somebody that good looking that only wants your body but doesn't want a relationship with you but you are extremely attracted to him and before saying goodbye, you have to say a certain kind of goodbye? Because we all know that that kind of relationship in the beginning probably was never going to work out maybe because the guy only wanted you for your body but some guys end up changing their ways or they're changing their minds even though in the beginning it seems like they only want the female for their body. Like just because you want a female for her body does not mean that you and her cannot have a successful relationship later on. I mean just because I'm attracted to my little white little boyfriends, does not mean that a relationship is not possible. That would be like someone telling me that just because I want my little white boyfriend physically, means that the chances of a relationship go down. But some people would call that lust. And I thought about it and I thought about whether I'm lustful or whether I'm just attracted. I feel like obviously I don't feel like I'm being lusty. But some guys might feel like I'm being lustful. I feel like I'm being attracted to them. I feel like I'm attracted to the guy that I'm attracted to. So like I feel like some people really don't understand like there's a really a fine line between like attraction and lust. Like I don't think you need to be judging me and calling me lustful when you are not me. So like you need to be asking me whether I feel like I'm being lustful or whether I'm just being attracted to whoever it is. And when I think about it, I feel like I'm attracted to whoever it is I'm attracted to. I feel like there's all kinds of subjects and feelings and emotions around the attraction thing that I'm talking about as far as myself and that also includes sexual and romantic and physical and emotional and spiritual attraction and not just sexual attraction. I feel like because every single person on this planet was made because somebody got impregnated because they had sex. So sex is not the evil factor. Just because sex is there does not make a person sinister. I feel like somebody out there that's really prude and just anti-sex is trying to make it seem like anything sexual is bad but I was born from two people having sex and so was everybody else. Somebody out there had sex and they had you or they had me. Somebody put their penises inside of somebody's vagina and they came inside of that vagina and when they came inside that vagina the sperm went to the little egg and then the baby came out of the thing after a few months. And if you have a lot of siblings, or half siblings, your dad went and stuck his penis in more vagina and came inside someone else even more and more! And then your dad ended up impregnating your mother or whoever it was your mother is. So everybody was born from somebody having sex you can't avoid that simple fact. But I think I want to go exercise.